Recently, I was taking with my cousins, and and I teasing them about this blog. I wanted to make it seem like a treasure hunt, with the contents of this page, and my instagram, on full display. However, in the process, I found an old, long forgotten blog that I made back in high school, with my entrepreneur class. I’m really shocked to see the differences between that David vs this one, so I’ll list some of my surprises below.
- High school David was a lot happier than college David thought. For the past few years, a lot of my identity was built upon the notion that my high school life was terrible, and I was the victim of a bunch of bullying and other misfortunes. However, reading the blog, I realized that this interpretation was misconstrued at best, and downright false at worst. I was a version of myself that had issues with finding a solid group of friends, but I also realized that I had many good friends. While it isn’t the best scenario, it really is much better than what I’ve thought. Translation? The fire that burned me, not fueled me, has been uncovered. The reason why I couldn’t find much to complain/learn about was because overall, I had an above average time. There were great moments, there were bad moments, but overall it was a reality that driven solely though egotistical measures, rather than those of the heart. Now, I need to understand what actually fuels my fire, rather than see what burns me to the ground.
- I have an indomitable soul. Now, after reading the posts, I realized how. much fun I was having within the school. I remember all of the good memories I have, and how FOMO and other unproductive shit that occurred due to my addiction to my phone and other electronics. In all honesty, my friends did hang out with me. That’s not a measure on my self worth, at all. Even though I was going through all of that, I still kept a smile on my face. I’m proud of that.
- I was a crafty fellow. In the later posts, I was talking about strategic measures I was taking to better action things with other people. I made quite a lot of good points that frankly, I never thought I could have made back then, according to my ego. It’s interesting that in retrospect, I really have become an extension of my old self. There are quite a few things about me that won’t change, and I’m fine with that. It’s just funny to see the ways that I operated, and how I haven’t changed the base layer.
- I didn’t overcomplicate things. This is a big one. Reading the posts, I saw a goal, and the things I described were just ways to better streamline the process. I didn’t overthink it, I just saw a fun and engaging goal to get to. Now, I’ve found myself in the loop of overthinking, then having a somewhat half backward way to get there. Too many cooks in the kitchen. I have to remember that the world is just as normal as a classroom, or a group of friends.
3 Things to take away
- find out what really motivates me, rather than eat away at my soul
- Simplify the action outline
- Embrace you lovely you are:)